This time around, alone with instrumentals, I found it even harder. Writing sad songs made me feel worse and writing happy songs made me feel like a liar - and both fueled my self hatred.
Read MoreAt 23 or 24 I signed a decent record deal with Mercury Records (which then got sucked into Island and eventually spat me out on Island Def Jam). I brought them a handful of alt-rock / rap songs that I’d been working on with a few music industry veterans who believed in me. The songs were good, not great, but they saw my skill and most importantly my potential. I often referenced Weezer and Wu-Tang, and they told me understood my creative vision.
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